Over the year 2005 i 2006, I was gradually putting more fruit and vegetables on my menu, and reducing quantity of meat. My weight was gradually dropping. I didn't notice anything particular during that period.
In the beginning of 2007 I decided to make a 40 day fruit fast. I lived almost exclusively on fresh fruit, dried fruit, nuts and similar ?seed kind of stuff?. Almost means that I did take 100% juices (no sugar or preservatives as advertised) occasionally.
Those are thermal processed. Also, buying dried fruits means that some contain glucose syrup or some natural or artificial preservatives. That was unavoidable for me, and I decided to go like that.
After that fast, I felt like continuing mostly fruit based eating. It means I had 60% to 100% fruit (fresh or dried) and ?seed kind of stuff? on my menu. Periods for certain percentage lasted from 3 days to 3 weeks, depending on how I felt. Other food I ate was vegetables, grains, bread. Little meat, little dairy products. Little thermal processing. Little condiments. This practice lasted till august.
In august something came up, that needed to be addressed promptly, for which I thought I left behind me. Something in my psyche needed to be addressed, which is out of the scope here. Due to that I felt to decrease percentage of fruit to 60% to 80%. Sometimes 50%, sometimes 100%. This kind of menu is still in power. Other food I eat is vegetables, grains, bread. Little meat, little dairy products. Little thermal processing. Little condiments.
For year 2007, in general, all this I accomplished by conscious eating method mostly, combined with discipline. There was forcing present, which I payed for in pain... and learned something.
I meditate, contemplate, exercise, stretch, jog and similar kind of stuff.
How I felt in 2007?
First the good news.
I felt how beautiful and simple life can be.
Feeling of the body, energy.... getting better every day.
Physical condition, stamina and fitness skyrocketing.
I went to thorough health check just to double check. It turned out my health was like athletes have. My heartbeat was as low as 45 bpm. Long distance runners have that low heartbeat or lower. I keep my engine running low baby!
I also went to local healer so he can perform energy check. Same result ? straight A.
This summer I went to our local mountain, with a bike. Last year I did that ? 2 years ago. I'm just a recreational biker normally. And this is a hard stuff compared to my occasional rides. 2 years ago, I couldn't walk without severe pain for 3 days after such mountain ride. Additional 3 days required to get back to normal. Now? Almost nothing! I got up there, and thought ?give me some more!?. Little or no pain the next day. Second day ? 100% up!
It is worth to mention I was able to perform non-ejaculatory orgasms for 90% of 2007. This also saved a bundle of energy. According to Tao principles ? around 30%. It took me around 10 months to perfect that skill, during the 2006. Now I'm back to ejaculation ? due to something in my psyche I already mentioned (I can feel the difference, believe me).
Now the bad news.
In short - I felt death!
This helped psyche issue to surface, issue I thought I left behind.
It is a strong feeling! Heavy stuff to lay upon me.
I felt death through that fruit I was eating.
How come? Well... here's is the story that came to me about 20 days ago. It needed time for all elements to fit together in this picture that follows.
All that fruit we can buy is picked half mature.
After that, it is left in storage areas to reach maturity under artificial light.
Vibration of such fruit brought me feeling of death.
I felt we're all charging towards death, faster than ever. High speed and above the red line.
We deceive our senses by thermal processing, condiments and spices... in order to stay in oblivion and illusion of safety.
In order to run away from the fact that we're charging towards death faster than ever.
Because everything is polluted - air, water, food.
Because everything is artificial.
Fruit is picked up half mature.
Same with vegetables.
Grains, like everything else is massively produced - breaking every law of natural cultivation.
Everything is some sort of hybrid, no more native and authentic species.
Everything is treated with chemicals, in order to repel insects and diseases.
Much of things are grown on chemicals, without ever being put to soil.
Artificial fertilizers are used.
All this is then used to feed animals.
Animals are also fed by their own remains (bones, skin and hairs pulverized).
Some artificial concentrated food is also used for animals.
And all that is being served as food for us, human beings.
All that food has such a low level of life in it.
All that food not only has very low vibration, it also has distorted vibration.
It is not about vitamins, proteins, minerals and all other scientific stuff.
It is about that subtle vibration, life vibration.
I do not know how to say this, how to call this.. other than life vibration.
It seems to me that it is also called prana, mana, zero point energy.
I do not have scientific proof of this.
But I do feel those subtle vibrations.
Food is not about calories gained.
Food is about how much energy one uses to digest it.
Energies for body are coming directly from other source. Divine. Not through our mouth.
So even I was eating distorted and incomplete vibration like everyone else, my body used far less energy digesting it.
That's why I've had more energy than ever. Besides the non-ejaculatory orgasms that saved me some energy.
And that's about it. I still feel this picture as the right one. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'll change it. Maybe not. So what?
Just a few observations on my digestion.
Lately, I fart a lot. It doesn't smell strong, sometimes no smell at all.
On some occasions I've noticed having very intensive bowel movements.
Typically it lasts for couple of days, and then it slows down.
During those days, my feces are soft, and I have several consequent runs to toilet.
My feces are composed of large quantity of rather small pieces, that go out very fast.
2 or 3 such such multiple runs a day.
On each multiple occasion, quantity of feces is a LARGE one.
I used to feel very exhausted and in pain after such runs.
Not any more for last couple of weeks.
I feel nice and ?light? when my digestion works that way.
Only drawback is that my anus is irritated and feels like burning.
It seems it occurs because of large quantity of feces coming out fast.
I changed my diet during those days ? having less fruit and more grains, plus some other stuff.
Such approach seems to help. Feces are getting a bit denser, and not always chunked to little pieces.
Leaving my anus with less pain.
Another interesting observation is that within the last couple of weeks, my bowel movements tend to be very fast. So fast that it sometimes takes only about 12 hours from mouth to anus!
Also, here is another observation I had this morning.
I've had another multiple run. Last one I examined.
It turned out to smell of tangerine I ate yesterday. Also, there were pieces of tangerine in it. It seems food is getting less digested within my system. I've noticed this before, but never were pieces of semi or non digested food so large as this morning. I've read somewhere about similar experience. Some guy came to point where food was not digested at all.
As I remember he got scared and abandoned 100% fruit diet. I'll see where this will go with me.
As for days when my digestion tends to be slower.
During those days I see no multiple runs. I go to toilet 1 to 4 times a day, but the quantity is nowhere near to days when bowel movements are fast. It seems my digestion is ?stuffing? feces during those days. I feel like being pregnant then Also, feces are always denser and compact when digestion is in ?slow? mode. In those days I eat more fruits (90% a day), and more wheat shells (don't know exact translation) that seem to make food go faster through my system.
All this is connected to issue I described in my earlier post. I feel it is to early to share any details on that issue. All I can say now is that my issue is greatly connected to fear I have. When fear is stronger, subtle energies get messed up in abdomen area, leading to days when my digestion slows down. When fear is weaker, my digestion goes to warp.
I've put this picture using observations of ?strange feeling? in abdomen area when fear is stronger, and by information that fear is usually indicated by that ?strange feeling?. Also, I have some experience and feelings on subtle energies in my system ? leading me to such picture that ?strange feeling? is in fact some kind of distortion of subtle energies in digestion system caused by fear.
I'll see where this takes me. I pretty much like this game.